Sunday, July 22, 2007

A bump in the road...

This evening, I felt....

like an oddball
alone
empty
weird
like I didn't have anything of importance to say
unworthy
like I was on the outside looking in
like a prude
like I know nothing
worthless
like I didn't fit in
very obese
like everyone was staring at me
unhappy

That was after church...and had nothing to do with church. During church, I felt wonderful.
I felt refreshed, I felt renewed, I felt filled with the His message of letting go of my earthly
fears. I felt reminded that He is with me always. I am never alone. He is in control. So,
when I started feeling these negative feelings this evening, I prayed and ask Him to forgive
me for I am His child and as a child of Him, I should be rejoicing that by grace, He knows
me and I am His. I asked him to take these negative and hurtful feelings from me. I
asked him to give me the peace in my heart that I know He wants for me. None of these
feelings really matter. I am only here a short time and I know "this world is not my home,
I'm just passing through`". I thanked him for his goodness, for His blessings, for his
patience and for his grace.

I feel better and while writing this, this song came to my mind. One of my favorites...

~~~This World Is Not My Home~~~


This world is not my home I'm just passing through
my treasures are laid up somewhere beyond the blue
the angels beckon me from Heaven's open door
and I can't feel at home in this world anymore

O Lord you know I have no friend like you
if Heaven's not my home then Lord what will I do?
the angels beckon me from Heaven's open door
and I can't feel at home in this world anymore

They're all expecting me and that's one thing I know

my savior pardoned me and now I onward go
I know He'll take me through though I am weak and poor
and I can't feel at home in this world anymore

O Lord you know I have no friend like you
if Heaven's not my home then Lord what will I do?
the angels beckon me from Heaven's open door
and I can't feel at home in this world anymore

Just up in Glory Land we'll live eternally
the Saints on every hand are shouting victory
their song of sweetest praise drifts back from Heaven's shore
and I can't feel at home in this world anymore

O Lord you know I have no friend like you
if Heaven's not my home then Lord what will I do?
the angels beckon me from Heaven's open door
and I can't feel at home in this world anymore

9 comments:

Patrizzia said...

((HUGS))

KSmith said...

Know exactly how you are feeling. I try not to think about those unworthy feelings and try to focus on the positive (though sometimes there is more negative than positive.
Keep a stiff upper lip

LeslieinTN said...

As soon as you wrote the part of the song in your post, I thought of that song (before I saw you had the lyrics below). Love that song. Remember the Lord made YOU as YOU and he loves YOU. ((HUGS)) sista!

Scott said...

what a beautiful song and post...I do hope you are feeling better now about yourself...our Heavenly Father is so good to us to hear and answer our prayers and help us feel how He feels about us. :)

Scott said...

lol...that was Krystin :)
gotta go sign out Scott.

Sue K. said...

Nicole, never forget, above all else, that you are loved. :D

Jolene said...

You are special, you are blessed, you are loved!!!

*HUGS*

Kristy said...

OK.. thanks to Lesley I jumped over to read this!!! What a true blessing you are. Enough said! :)

Shell said...

Hugs to you Nicole, like your thought title - a bump in the road. I hope that we can all be here for you when you hit a few pot holes or awkward bends too!
Take care.